On Sidetracks

This quote has served me well this year.  Because man, have things gone wrong in 2014. Before this year started, I was sure it was going to be the best year of my entire life. Rainbows, puppies and every dream I'd ever had would come true. Okay, maybe not that optimistic, but my hopes were high. Now while this year hasn't been awful, (I've been lucky in that even bad years have silver linings) it has been a challenge. 

Anxiety has popped up more than it has in recent years. I've been ill. I've had other personal things happen that I don't feel comfortable talking about on the Internet. I've had several crisis of faith with my writing. Not that I'm a horrible writer overall, but whether or not I should give up on the book I've spent the last two and a half years on. When you work on something for so long, it can be hard to have perspective about it. 

Which is why, this time around, as I query, I'm keeping busy. Editing one project while I write a new book that came to me completely out of the blue. My expectations are far more realistic, too. I'm expecting the rejections. Though this time around, I think I have the perspective to know that it's the book, it's not me. It's a very tough market and the book I'm querying is a little different. I won't dive in for another round of edits. It will be time to put my focus elsewhere. My other projects would likely be easier sells, I know this. 

Is something big about to be born? Who knows. When things start to go wrong all at once, you have to wonder. It's why I repeat this quote to myself. Even if I still have a ways to go before I reach another hurdle in my publishing journey, staying hopeful is the best thing for me right now.